Today

I took John to the airport at 3:30 Wednesday morning and headed home for a little more rest before morning.  Pax was up every hour until 7:15 at which time he came in and got in bed and spit up everywhere...during the night or early morning I should say everytime Pax got up I was reminded that I was going to have to depend on Jesus every moment that John was gone...needless to say but I must anyway the spit up was the clencher...yes Jesus was going to have to get me thru every moment.  He always does I just so seldom stop to recognize it.

The last time Pax threw up was in January of 2015, we were at church, he was in the ktan and blew chunks directly in my face during beginning worship.  Quickly we headed home and I went up to the shower...not even five minutes after starting the shower I started miscarrying.  About four weeks prior we were at our 9 week ultrasound appointment and saw a sweet little baby so still in my womb...there had been life but no heartbeat was found.  I had spent the next four weeks petitioning the Lord on behalf of our sweet baby to restore the heartbeat, to choose life for this child.  But here the Lord had rendered his decision.  I was so sad, but so confident that this was happening for my good.  For our families good.  Always.  God protected me and got me home to a warm shower...what tender care is that...Pax was not sick again, he napped at home and woke up as if nothing had happened.  God loves me so much that he would make my son throw up chunks in my face during worship to get me home and in a warm shower just when I needed it most...okay so here we are..John headed to Malawi and I am at home with a sick Pax a sleeping Joy an excited Julian and Jude for this was the day we were headed to the beach with Uncle Mike Aunt Amie Elizabeth Abbie Emma and Hannah all who were sound asleep upstairs.  

I quarantined Pax with movies in the boys room and helped get the Siefert's and my big boys off to the beach.  We would stay home today, this was the day our Lord had made I would trust him with it.

Pax ate some Cheerios and some taco chips and fell asleep about 1pm in the middle of watching finding Nemo.  He woke up at 4:30 hungry for a baked potato.  Happy as a lark without any symptoms... I'm not sick he told me.  I had spent the day taking care of sweet sister and doing house work wondering what the Lord had protected me from today.  For this had a purpose...all things have a purpose.  By 7pm I was ready lets go to the beach :).  This morning the kiddos were quite glad to be together.

And the beautiful day at the beach awaits us!

A day

I had put a lot of thought into today...what would I love to do?  

Put Pax in the stroller and walk and walk, stop at some point drink some water eat something healthy and walk and walk.  

I think the hint of crisp, of cool, in the air has me hungry for fall, for outdoors, for energy and exercise.

But instead, home beacons, to do's I don't do because I would rather play chess or go over 3's, sit and drink coffee with John.  I "waste" moments not accomplishing what I "should", a clean house, laundry, ironing, dishes, weeds to do what I MUST, mother, be present, be slow and not impatient, watch and not run.  These moments are fleeting, I don't want to miss one eye contact, joke or conversation.

So today during naps I..

And during awakes I

Today was a good day!

(What the others were doing....)

Crunch berries for dinner

Two movies instead of one and excitement about midnight gator play to keep the boys from sleeping.

3's, respect, Texas preacher, Virginian, Argue, pancakes, lemons, thorns, rbl, jolly rancher, grapefruit spoon, gleeful giggles, surprise diaper, knight shield, 14 or 15, kisses, barefoot, bathroom race, walk, pickup, milk mustache, pencil chew toy, no ice!, Guatemala sb, gluing cleat, 30" tile, packing water and dinner, last minute arrow supplies, no mail, huge fish, 

A hundred memories to cherish today, yet it goes so fast our day is hard to recollect, more forgotten then remembered.  To do's were set aside today, just to be present in each moment.

Praying for dear friends

Jude and I prayed for an hour reading gods word and fasting our play, productivity, rest, to do's.  our first time sitting at gods feet for a set amount of time, together.  

I am blessed.

All I know is....

You are coming home!!!!!!!  Probably already have left Rome.  Oh we are ready.

God has been so faithful, the boys have been such blessings but I am so glad tomorrow night I will get to fall asleep in your arms.

We had an amazing day.  Eve and Sarah played with Pax this morning and put him down for a nap so the boys and I could work on cars, garage, chicks.  Amanda brought yummy oatmeal over for breakfast then she mowed your front yard and side yard so you wouldn't have to do it right when you got back!!!  Then the Pearson's had us over for dinner the boys swam and hit golf balls and played in the drive, Shital held Pax while he slept so I could eat, her and Chris traded off.  It was wonderful.  

Bsf starts soon, heard from my leader tonight.

Folding clothes, grading math and heading to sleep.

Praying for your travels love

Goodnight 43 hours and counting

Good day today.  We all looked forward to visiting the Irvin's this afternoon, boys were so excited they were done with school by 11.  

They have had such great attitudes and been good sports about helping out their 'ole mom.  

(Sorry a little Tex in there, I can't help it, Jude's been Tex for just days now!) 

Eve and Sarah are going to come play with Pax tomorrow so I can do some last minute catch up before you get home!

And we will be at Shital's for dinner, tomorrow will be another good day. 

Pray for our friends, session 1 is at 3 tomorrow.  

Pray for Leah's sister, she just miscarried, I remember how hard that was for us before we had Julian.  She is in Denver so no help is there.

So excited to see you, it will be nice to get to sit by you for our long drive, I might even get to hold your hand - 

watch out!

You are loved.

Goodnight

What a day!  You have three amazing sons.  What a blessing they are to me :)

Tonight we walked to the top of the "hill" on Eli and the boys rode their scooters all the way to the church, then they practiced crashing and doing amazing stunt moves into the grass....

we made a double check list for bedtime this morning so tonight they were on top of their responsibilities ;) Jude called it the constitution of bedtime!

It was wonderful seeing you and talking with you today.  I just finished grading and noticed you are on Skype but you should be sleeping, early morning ahead of you!  

I love you.

Pax rolled more tonight!